Last night I was doing homework with Peanut, when I suddenly thought, "I'm not qualified to do this. How did I become a parent? How do I know if I'm doing any of this right?"
Keep in mind that Peanut is 6. Her homework consists of reading a story to me, practicing her sight words, vocabulary words and spelling words. This stuff isn't rocket science . . . and I wasn't really thinking about this specific homework, but rather life in general. Am I too hard on the girls? Am I too easy on them? When I correct her for saying "the" instead of "a" while reading, am I helping her or making her self-conscious of all the little things instead of focusing on the big picture? (She obviously knows the difference and never confuses the words when viewed on flashcards, just in stories where either word will work just fine.) Am I doing anything right? If so, what? What am I doing wrong? How do I know? How do I fix my mistakes? How can I be a better mom?
Right now, since I'm not working outside the home, being a mom is all that I do. It is disheartening to think that I might be failing at the only job I have - the most important job I'll ever have. Does anyone else ever feel the same?